[Creative Nonfiction | Issue 12]

Isabel Hoin

A Nocturne for Ghosts

The human mind tends to sway in

and-out

of thought

best when it is in a meditative state. A ghost-state,

where spirits float from room to room, rocking me to sleep.

I. I ask them if they’ve ever been here before, and they answer: “Yes.”

II. I then ask “When?” and they say “Often.”

III. I’m not sure what to make of this finding. A most-definite sense of discomfort.

Ghosts are our thoughts when we rest our heads at night. Thoughts: a collection of ghosts. A form of embodied cognition.

Does this mean, then, that our memory is just an act of coming-and-going? What does this tell us— memory shifting with the inclination of age? Of time?

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Sigmund Freud termed Screen Memories as a “. . . distorted memory. . . [usually] from childhood. . . that unconsciously serves the purpose of concealing or screening out.” A poem is a distorted memory, its form different from a past reality. This is how I would describe it:

Screening, masking, cutting

the edges of memory to make

something more circular.

Types of edges the mind

bounces to and from, never

missing a corner. I try to

think circularly, no conceal

ment. I don’t think I know

one writer who has a mind

completely circular. There

tends to be some sort of

distortion. Or dystopia.

A possible interchange

of thought.


Isabel Hoin (she/her) is a Lancaster, PA native and is a writer of poetry and lyric essays in Old Dominion University's MFA program where she is a Perry Morgan Fellow. Her work is already in or is forthcoming in Vagabond City, Complete Sentence, Door=Jar Magazine, Blue Press Magazine, Wild Roof Journal, Voices/1922 Review, La Picciolėtta Barca Review, and Pensive: A Global Journal of Spirituality & the Arts at Northeastern University, among others. She’s a 2025 Tinker Mountain Merit Scholarship Recipient in Poetry at Hollins University and is a teacher of Poetry at The Muse Writers Center in Norfolk, VA. You can find her at https://isabel-hoin.my.canva.site/isabelhoin-com/