[Creative Nonfiction | Issue 12]
Isabel Hoin
A Nocturne for Ghosts
The human mind tends to sway in
and-out
of thought
best when it is in a meditative state. A ghost-state,
where spirits float from room to room, rocking me to sleep.
I. I ask them if they’ve ever been here before, and they answer: “Yes.”
II. I then ask “When?” and they say “Often.”
III. I’m not sure what to make of this finding. A most-definite sense of discomfort.
Ghosts are our thoughts when we rest our heads at night. Thoughts: a collection of ghosts. A form of embodied cognition.
Does this mean, then, that our memory is just an act of coming-and-going? What does this tell us— memory shifting with the inclination of age? Of time?
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Sigmund Freud termed Screen Memories as a “. . . distorted memory. . . [usually] from childhood. . . that unconsciously serves the purpose of concealing or screening out.” A poem is a distorted memory, its form different from a past reality. This is how I would describe it:
Screening, masking, cutting
the edges of memory to make
something more circular.
Types of edges the mind
bounces to and from, never
missing a corner. I try to
think circularly, no conceal
ment. I don’t think I know
one writer who has a mind
completely circular. There
tends to be some sort of
distortion. Or dystopia.
A possible interchange
of thought.
Isabel Hoin (she/her) is a Lancaster, PA native and is a writer of poetry and lyric essays in Old Dominion University's MFA program where she is a Perry Morgan Fellow. Her work is already in or is forthcoming in Vagabond City, Complete Sentence, Door=Jar Magazine, Blue Press Magazine, Wild Roof Journal, Voices/1922 Review, La Picciolėtta Barca Review, and Pensive: A Global Journal of Spirituality & the Arts at Northeastern University, among others. She’s a 2025 Tinker Mountain Merit Scholarship Recipient in Poetry at Hollins University and is a teacher of Poetry at The Muse Writers Center in Norfolk, VA. You can find her at https://isabel-hoin.my.canva.site/isabelhoin-com/